She does like to be molested. It’s quite obvious.
Did she want me to push even harder? Did she want me to “take” her virginity. If she didn’t want it at the level of her “fore brain,” did she want it in an animal way… at the level of her “hind brain?”
I think she did. I have met girls like this. They can be very dangerous. They are invisible to the modern feminist ethos, like so many truths about male-female polarity. Girls who say one thing, but want another. This is the sort of place even I don’t want to go, online, as it is too incendiary. But I have seen this happen, in real life.
It’s a part of the “Women don’t like responsibility or having to make choices” theme that I have written about… most women don’t want to be responsible for their sexual decisions. Some take that fundamental desire to be led further than they should. So they emit these “invitations” to go “too far.” They put themselves into the situation where “it just happens.” They don’t know how it happened. They go to the situation, only to be able to have some psychological ability to deny what happens, afterwards.
I have touched a little bit on these thoughts. It’s why I don’t believe a lot of the stories women tell me. Usually there is complicity. Unacknowledged, of course. Chicks often don’t understand their own psychologies. They can’t. It’s part of their strategy.
This chick sounds like she is complicit and does not wish to take responsibility for what she does. She wants you to. But that is very dangerous, probably unwise, in a foreign country, where you don’t know the justice system, where you don’t know that much about her family situations, etc., unless I missed part of the story (it is a very long story… in my view, Nash does too much texting, although I believe that it didn’t matter in this case).
If you read books of women’s sexual fantasies, like Nancy Friday’s collections, you will find fantasies that are illegal. If you read romance novels, you will often find the same. In romance novels, the heroine is often “taken” and taken superficially “against her will…” but by a high-status, attractive man who will then pledge himself to her.
So I do not advocate any of the ideas or strategies I am skirting here. I don’t want to go here. It’s too dark, especially for readers who are in a “cold” state.
Nash thinks my reading of the girl is wrong: “I don’t happen to think this is it. I believe that concept is true… but she wasn’t looking for ‘deniability,’ she was turned on me pushing her boundaries. That is a different phenomenon.” He further says
I want to be careful that I don’t miss parts of this that are about me not being willing to pull the trigger… but with her, I think she was actually so young, she wasn’t quite ready. I believe that really was the first time she’d been in that position. I saw when she was genuinely close to fear. Not because I wasn’t being cool… but because it was so new.
And she was adjusting fast. Like her reaction to my cock the first time was close to panic. 2nd time, nervous avoidance. 3rd time… she was fascinated. That is a sexual learning curve.
He was there and I wasn’t. But I know and have encountered the types of girls I describe, even if this girl isn’t one. There is one other guy in the comments pushing in the dark direction I mention.